Everyday, I cook, clean, serve, wipe, rub, zip, button, lace, velcro, scrub, run, chase, scoop, hug, kiss, cuddle, pull-up, pull-down, discipline, rescue, save, stop, help, lift, lower, play, skip, laugh, buckle, wash, dry, turn-on, turn-off, reach, grab, answer, ask, speak, carry, make, discover, grow and love.
This is the role I play and I accept it gladly. I am honored to be called a mom and I am honored to be the mom of my sweet J and sweet baby LT.
I love my babies with all that I am. They are my whole heart (along with the Hubs). If I need to go all Chuck Norris or kick a baby goat to protect my kids, then THAT'S what I'm going to do!
I am not perfect. (You can pick your jaw up off the floor now.) Each day, I struggle with being the best person, best mom I can be.
Here is the ugly truth: Sometimes I yell.
What's the big deal, you say? Every parent does it, you say?
Well, first of all, just because everyone does it, doesn't mean it's right. (Remember, when your mom used to tell you "if everyone jumped off a bridge, would you do it too?")
And secondly, it's a big deal to me.
Sometimes I yell because I am frustrated or because I am tired. But, you know what? It doesn't matter the reason.
I don't like the way it makes me feel. And I don't like the way it makes my kids feel.
And so sweet boy J and sweet baby LT, here is my promise to you:
I promise to treat you as you deserve to be treated and as I would like to be treated.
I promise I will stop and count to five before I speak if I feel like I am going to yell. If I need to, I will give myself a "time out" so I can cool down.
I promise the only time I will yell is when you are in physical danger.
I promise not to make you feel bad. You are the loves of my life. I would never want to be the reason your feelings are hurt.
I promise I will always be there for you whenever you need me even if it isn't convenient for me. Being your mom (and Daddy's wife) is my top priority. All the other stuff is just noise.
I promise to never make you feel insignificant or that you don't matter. You are a blessing and you are important to me. YOU MATTER.
I promise that nothing you could ever say or do will make me stop loving you.
I promise to make time to listen to what you have to say so please always know you can talk to me about anything.
I promise this is not going to be easy for me but I am committed to it. Please be patient with me and understanding if I mess up. Right now, you think I hung the moon, but there is so much I do not know. Life is a journey and I am learning more everyday.
I love you sweet boy J and sweet baby LT. I am proud to be your mom. And you two make me want to BE BETTER.